The Non Linear Path of Growth and Healing

Summary

In this episode of the Do Life podcast, Layla Dawn shares her personal journey through healing and the challenges that come with it. She discusses the non-linear nature of growth, the inevitability of setbacks, and the importance of acknowledging triggers. Layla emphasizes that healing is a continuous process, often filled with ups and downs, and encourages listeners to embrace their journey, seek therapy, and explore various healing methods. She reflects on her own experiences, including a recent incident that tested her resilience, and offers insights on how to navigate life's obstacles with a positive mindset.

Takeaways

Healing is not a linear process; it involves ups and downs.

Setbacks are a normal part of the healing journey.

It's okay to feel triggered by past experiences.

Acknowledging your feelings is crucial for growth.

Therapy can be beneficial for everyone, regardless of trauma.

Healing requires patience and self-compassion.

You can learn from your reactions to setbacks.

Embrace the journey of healing, even when it's tough.

It's important to celebrate your progress, no matter how small.

Healing methods vary; find what works best for you.

Chapters

00:00 Introduction to Healing and Growth

01:45 Personal Story: The Manifestation Summit Incident

06:30 Understanding Triggers in Healing

09:56 The Journey of Healing: Setbacks and Growth

15:12 The Reality of Spiritual Awakening

21:01 The Never-Ending Journey of Healing

22:11 Therapy and Healing: Different Approaches

28:38 Conclusion: Embracing the Healing Journey

Transcript

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Hi friends, welcome to the Do Life podcast where we talk about... ah! Where we talk about life, um, some common obstacles and some clever ways to tackle those obstacles. I don't know if you could tell from the last week's episode, but your girl's been kind of going through it. And, um, we've done episodes on mental health and things like that before. And so we're not going to get into all that today. But what I want to talk about today is healing not physically or just mentally or emotionally, but basically like overall Because I've come a long way and I'm sure many of you have if you're watching this podcast on any sort of regular basis it's a self-help podcast and Usually aren't in a place of self-help or wanting to do better unless you've been through some things and you're trying to stay on this growth. But I want to say that it is not a linear swing. It's not like, I started from the bottom. Now I'm here and you didn't go back down. I don't think it's a straight line of growth and healing. think it's a, it's an up and down. So you try not to go as down as low as you. you never want to hit rock bottom, but sometimes we do. And I just think it's really important to acknowledge that step backs or step backs are going to happen. They're inevitable. But it's how you handle them and the mindset that you maintain while going through things that's going to get you out on top faster and help you heal on a. On a quicker basis. So, With that being said, I just wanted to... I guess I could share my story. I went to a manifestation summit in L.A. a couple weeks ago. I was working the event and I was really excited. Gwyneth Paltrow was going to be there, Joe Dispenza. I've been following Joe for many, many years and it was really, really exciting to... be in a live event with Joe participating. And I've been to a manifestation summit before last March in Miami. And it was amazing. And all of my manifestations came to fruition. So I was really excited about this particular trip. And unfortunately, the day I got there, I went to the orientation for the job. and met a bunch of people. Everything was great and happy and friendly. And then I got back to my car and my windows were broken and all of my stuff was stolen. And I knew, I knew I was in downtown Miami. I live in St. Louis. I traveled to Chicago. Like I'm always, I was in New Orleans three weeks ago. And I've always made sure to take special care that nothing is in plain sight. You can't see anything in my car. All my valuables are taken with me. So what I thought was my billbook with all my personal information and account numbers, passwords, was just an empty. binder. So I have like a leather zip case and one of them had all of my personal information in it and the other one had nothing. I a notepad and some pens and some business cards and it's the one I actually take to clients homes. when I used to do things like that. so I brought the wrong book in and all of my identity was basically stolen. Stolen my credit cards, they have all my info. They stole my camping stuff because I was turning this little trip into a, what do call it? I'm just gonna turn it into like a solo female road trip. And I was real excited. I was gonna stay in California. I was gonna go to the... National Park, so I was gonna do some hiking. They stole my camel back. Like, I don't know if you know what a camel back is. It's a backpack that has water in it. So it had water. It had a shiwi. Like, I really hope they put that in their mouth, thinking it was some kind of, like, drugs. Anyway, I'm being petty. I'm trying, man, so this growth thing, petty is really hard for me. Like, I used to be the queen of petty, and so trying to be healed and not that person is really hard for me. But yeah, so they stole my camel back with my water. So I stole a backpack full of water. They stole a couple other backpacks full of snacks. They stole my camp and stuff. So like everything that they took, it's not like they can take to a pawn shop and get anything. The only thing that they have that was of any value was all my rocks. I usually wear rock bracelets and rings and, you know, my dead mom's jewelry. I would really like to have that back. But I know this is the universe's way of telling me. that I needed to detach from material things. it's definitely teaching me that lesson in the worst way possible, and I really wish it wasn't. But I've learned, because now I'm like, I don't want any of it. I went to the store and had these really pretty necklaces, and I was like, whatever, I want my necklaces back. And if I can't have them, I don't want any. So that was helpful. But it's really like set me back mentally because I thought I was on this healing journey and I was doing so well with with where I was and where I came and I'm sorry, they stole my makeup too. I do have makeup, I'm not gonna run around and look homeless. But they stole a lot of my makeup, they stole most of my mermaid stuff, which is pretty sad. So yeah, they stole my makeup and my jewelry and my perfume was probably the only thing that they could probably really get any money for. And even that most of my jewelry is not really worth anything other than to me or private collectors. So. I'm sorry. Committing to doing this podcast. It's already Thursday. I was supposed to have this out on Wednesday But it's just been a really rough week. And like I said, I almost wasn't going to continue to do this podcast because it is very time-consuming and I don't really have time to do it But this is me making time to do it so you get to watch me put my makeup on and do my hair Fresh out the shower before I go to a concert tonight I am hopefully going to have some time maybe tomorrow to. record a handful of episodes like I've scripted them out and I have a really good idea of like what I want to talk to you guys about and what I want to make the next episodes for so hopefully I have some time this weekend to get some recordings in and have that ready for you so I'm excited about that but I wanted to get a video out this week because I said I would and I'm trying to be true to my word So there's that. But yeah, so growth, so healing. it's one thing when you think that you're fully healed and you're like, okay, I've processed this, I've digested this, I'm okay with this, I understand what happened, I forgive this person even. And then you think you're over it and everything's good. And the next thing you know, something triggers you a few weeks later. And all of a sudden, everything floods back from that original thing that you thought you were over. And you're like, wait a minute, I was over this. It didn't even bother me or affect me or faze me. Why am I triggered? And I want you to know that that is 100 % okay and that's perfectly normal and part of the healing and the growth process is. You can think that you're over something as much as you want and you never know when you're going to be triggered. And some of us have a pretty good idea. Some of us know, like, we're gonna go to Uncle Joe's for Thanksgiving and he's gonna say some racist, transphobic something and he's gonna make my gay cousin Jimmy mad and it's gonna be a battle and all the yelling is gonna trigger, like, it's a whole thing. Like, you know when you're gonna be triggered sometimes, but you don't always know. Sometimes you can think that you're completely over something and then you later learn that you're not. And I just, want it to be known that it's okay. It's okay if something comes back up. It's okay if you thought you were over something and then later realized, I'm not okay with this. This is a problem. It doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. It doesn't mean that you didn't do a good job healing. It just means that those wounds go a little deeper than you anticipated and that maybe you healed the surface level wounds, but you didn't get to the core, the root. And that's where you need to kind of take a step back and be like, okay, so I thought I was over this and then this triggered me. Why does this bother me as much as it does? Is it more than what I originally thought or did I just not, was I lying to myself when I thought I was healed? So there's a lot of things that you can kind of dissect, a lot of ways that you can dissect that and see what your core trigger was. and whether or not you've successfully. healed. And also if you're like, okay, I've dissected this. know the root problem. I've worked on it. I'm healed from that. You might just be triggered. Like it might just be a thing that's just going to happen every so often. You're just going to get triggered by something and that's just, it's okay. Like it could just happen. Again, healing isn't a straight line. You could be healed here from this thing. and then tomorrow something happens and then you're back down here. As long as you don't go back down here, you go here. So that still means you've healed, dude. You've healed this much. If that makes sense. So if rock bottom is here and you healed to here and something triggers you and you end up here, you've still healed that much. Is that better? Is that a better picture? I don't know. I'm not stuttering. I didn't say heal 87 times. I'm trying to explain that. I don't know. so don't be too hard on yourself. Don't hurt yourself mentally. Don't be mean to you if you don't stay as healed as you thought you were. If you need to take a moment to process something, if something triggers you and You know, like it's real hard. I tried to be the better person in this situation. I'm going to keep bringing this up because this is like the whole reason I'm talking about this is because I'm not perfect. I'm human and I'm struggling with this currently. And I know if I'm struggling with it, other people are struggling and I just want to like, it's okay. It's normal. We're human. you know, Old me wants to call up some friends from North County and be like, hey Mo, you owe me like a favor, remember from back in the day? Do you got like 10 friends? Can we just hop on a plane or take a little road trip to LA, fully loaded, go hunt down my stuff and take care of those people? Yeah, I really, really wanna do that. But the healed version of me is like. They stole your credit card and bought cell phones and groceries. Like clearly they need the money more than you. Maybe you could look at it as you needed to let go of materialistic attachments to things. And this was a gift to them. This was your charity to them. Look at it that way. And I tried really hard. I had a 27 hour ride home because I was just so done with life at that point. I didn't even want to go anywhere or do anything. I didn't want to finish my road trip. I just wanted to go home. and be sad about it. So what I did was I didn't listen to any music and I just I felt all the feelings and I dissected the situation and I listened to my thoughts and was just present with myself in this situation. And so I went through the whole spectrum of emotions. went through all 12 stages of grief. I cried for my things. I'm not a big cryer. I don't cry a lot. I cried a lot. I cried a lot. Because I grew up kind of poor with nothing. And so everything I have, I feel like it's a sense of accomplishment. You I bought everything that I own. Because when I was little, we didn't have any money, so nobody could buy me anything. So losing that felt like I lost a sense of accomplishment. Like there was things that I've accomplished and now that those things are gone, it was like a part of me was gone too. There was a lot. So I learned a lot and just sitting in silence and dealing with my thoughts and my emotions and fully feeling everything and... And I realized how much I wanted to beat myself up and blame myself. Like, I should have never left that out in the car. Well, you know, I knew better. I knew better. And I meant to come back out and get it, but I was walking like two blocks away and I carried everything that I could carry. And I was going to come back and get the rest of this stuff. And when I got to the hotel, I was just so exhausted. I laid down and I was unconscious. So, you know, I had good intentions and then just didn't work out the way I thought they were. And... shit happens. I can sit here and be like, I shoulda, coulda, woulda done all these things all day, but none of that changes what actually happened. And it doesn't do me any good psychologically to sit and beat myself up over what I could've or should've done differently. Like I knew what was happening. I knew that I left those things in the car. Well, kind of, I didn't think I was leaving some of them, but you know. It's not going to do any good to think of all the koto what I should have. It does. It is helpful to figure out what was I meant to learn from this. Did I learn that? Yes. But I think I've learned more in my behavior and my reactions to this scenario than I have the situation itself. Again, old me would have been like, we're gonna go find them, we're gonna get my stuff, we're not even gonna worry about the police. new me is like, you know what, let them have it. And that's hard. It's so hard. And growth isn't easy. Healing isn't easy. It's hard. And it's okay. It's okay to have unhealed moments where we want to go North County on them. And it's okay if you think you're healed from something and then all of a sudden you're not and something is brought to your attention and you're like, oh, you know, there's things that me and my partner would fight about and we would fight and argue and then all of a sudden we get over it and we're better and you think you're healed and you think you're better. And then something else happens and all of a sudden you're re-triggered and it's like, wait a minute, I'm still upset about this thing that I thought I was over. Clearly we didn't resolve that. And then they're like, well, you're bringing up old stuff because it still hurts. And the new stuff that you're doing reminds me of the old stuff that you did. And now I'm hurt by both of them all over again. So, yeah, there's, there's a lot that goes into that, but healing is a journey. It's constant. I see a lot of people, it's kind of funny, see so many people that talk about their spiritual awakening. It was so magical and it was so beautiful and it was this and that. And I know they're full of shit because that's not real. That's not how this works. Your spiritual awakening is like something happens and it's traumatic and you heal and you deal with it you're like, everything's better. And then as soon as everything's better, boom, something else hits you and it's like, you thought you were healed. You thought you were done. But wait, there's more! Yeah, that's what a real spiritual awakening looks like. It's dramatic. It's the best way I can put that. And it's constant. So every time you think you've met the boss and you've fought the main boss, something else happens and more comes. And it's just never-ending and it's exhausting and it's... It's so easy to give up. It's so easy for me to be like, you know what? I don't even want to do this anymore. I don't want to do anything anymore. I just want to sit in a hole and depressed and rot away and let all the mental health diagnosis take over or whatever and and yeah and that would be so much easier than actually dealing with the things that are thrown at you and processing but in dealing with everything and processing and healing you come out ahead and you learn so much about yourself and other people and their journey and their healing process. I see people who are where I used to be and I don't look down on them like, ugh. I don't scoff at them. I am humbled by them. I feel their pain and I'm just like. I get it. I get it. And I empathize with them and I feel for them and I'm really rooting for their growth. Like I really want to see them get better. I want to see them come out on top. Nothing, nothing makes me happier than seeing someone struggle like I've struggled and then overcome everything even to a better level than where I'm at. You know, if they surpassed me. I'm so happy for them. I am cheering them on and And I just don't understand why more people aren't like that. Like, why aren't we cheering for each other? Why are some of us so stuck in making other people feel bad? And I get Misery loves company, but why? I don't know, like I'm down in the dumps. I don't want people around me to be down in the dumps too. I want to see them happy. I want to pay you back off their happiness. I want to be like, you've got a new promotion. You're making all this money. I'm so excited about all the things you're about to do. I want to be happy for them because being happy for them takes me away from my self-loathing and feel sorry for me because I'm not trying to be in that victim mindset. There's there's the three main mindsets. There's your victim mindset where the world is happening to you. Everything happens to you. And then there's your survivor mindset where I've overcome. Look at all this stuff that I did. I overcame that. The universe threw this at me and I did this. And and then there's the driver who is just, you know what? Everything happens for a reason. I'm just going to deal with things as it comes. I'm happy and grateful for everything that's happened in general. and I try to stay in that Thriver mindset but sometimes you're a victim and I hate to be a victim because it makes me feel like Like I'm reverting, like I'm going back to, you know, when I was in that victim mindset where everything was happening to me and the world was just. Out to get me. And to go from paranoia to pronoia. Pronoia is basically where you think the world is conspiring in your favor instead of out to get you. And so when things have happened and I'm an actual victim, like, you know, I was robbed, I was a victim of robbery. And it's so hard for me to want to admit that I was a victim in something because then I feel like no, I'm back in that mindset. I'm back to being a victim and it's like, those words don't have to define you. They don't have to define me. I don't have to be a victim. I was victimized. things happened that put me in that position. That doesn't mean I have to take on that personality. That doesn't mean that needs to be my persona. I don't have to be a victim, forever. I could be a victim in that moment. And so that's just something to kind of be mindful of is really just... Step backs are gonna happen, they're inevitable. You don't have to take on the personality of that. I don't have to be a victim. It should happen. It should happen, I got over it. I'm getting over it. So I know that was a trigger for me because I felt like I had come so far to get out of the victim mindset to be. to be in Thriver. Cause I was in survivor mindset for more of my life than almost I want to admit. But it was, it was really just like, instead of being like, poor me, the world happens to me. It was like, I can overcome anything that the world throws at me. Look at all this stuff that I've done. And I was proud of that. And there's nothing wrong with that, but I wanted to be the level up. I wanted to be like, you know what? I don't have to constantly win battles. I don't have to constantly overcome challenges. Sometimes I can just be. And I love it so much more when I can just be. And so the universe was telling me that I shouldn't have gone on this trip. I shouldn't have done these things. And I didn't listen. And I went anyway. And these are the things that happen. So. I just wanted to be known that you're... growth isn't linear, setbacks do happen, it's okay. It's okay. Stay on your journey, continue to heal. Know that the more you heal, the more things are gonna get thrown at you. Every time I feel I'm slightly more healed than before, the universe is like, hey, remember this thing that you never really got over? How about you process that? It's like, okay. So then you do. So just be aware that the more you heal and the further you come in your journey, the more is going to be thrown at you. Because the more you're capable of dealing with and healing and as much as I'm like, yo universe, like I'm glad that you think I can handle so much, but can you not? Please? Can we not do these things right now? I'm just, I don't know. So yeah, so there's always gonna be more. And even if you're like, I'm just gonna give up, I'm not gonna do any of these things, I'm just gonna. be. The universe is gonna be like, we don't care. This is beautiful. Make this the cover and put some things on it. There's always gonna be something to overcome you're never gonna be fully healed and I'm sorry if that's news and I just like to stride your whole life and everything you ever thought about everything but Yeah, healing is a never ending journey. The more you heal, the more... the more you heal. Like, the more you heal from... Anyway. So healing, yes. Don't. Don't quit healing. I read a really good book. called the Body Keep Score and it is a really hard read. It's very triggering so I will give you that trigger warning. If you have been through a lot of trauma it does talk about a lot of traumatic things and I found it to be very triggering for me and so did most of the people I've recommended it to but It gives some really good advice on different ways to heal and continue to stay on that journey. It talks about doing, what is it? EFT, emotional freedom tapping, something where you just say positive affirmations and you tap. have a friend of mine who she's been through a lot of trauma and she recently told me that she does that and did a It's really worked well for her. So that's something that you can look into. I think everybody on the planet needs therapy. Just my personal recommendation. Even if you don't think you have any trauma, you do. Everybody does. It's okay. It's not anything to be ashamed of. It's just something that we need to be acknowledging. And I think. I think therapy in general is good just to help like with healthy coping mechanisms. Even if there maybe isn't, there really isn't anything wrong with you and you haven't been through any kind of trauma, which is lies. Having an unbiased opinion, someone tell you how to just have healthy coping mechanism, how to have, how to be a better communicator. Things like that. Those are integral. parts of human development and. And I just think everybody in general is going to be better off for having some sort of healing and therapy and so working specifically with a therapist to tell you, you know, how to cope with certain things, how to better communicate your feelings, thoughts and ideas is integral. I also think that There are psychedelic therapies out there now. I don't think you should heal like we healed in high school where we just went to the train tracks with a bag of mushrooms and hoped for the best. No, don't do that. go to a trained therapist, psychoanalyst, whatever they're called. they give you the proper dosage. They help you with the right amounts of therapy while doing the drugs. And, it's just such a better process than the long run. And I've known people who have had like amazing experiences, like agoraphobics are now traveling solo traveling like they were afraid to leave their house and now they're solo traveling in foreign countries and I just think that that's so profound and that the healing that can come from these things is just amazing and It's still really pointy, huh? Maybe this wasn't the greatest angle to do this episode. But yeah, like they've done ketamine and mushrooms, psilocybin, whatever you want to label it. And they've just had amazing results from that. So there's a lot of things that you can do to help facilitate your healing in a faster way between, you know, drugs and... therapies and all kinds of new I want call them experimental drugs, I guess they kind of are experiments. but either way, I think they, they're good and they work and I highly recommend them. especially if you're someone who struggles from... CPSD. Sometimes childhood trauma, post-traumatic child distress. And you don't necessarily have to take medications. I know a lot of people who are so against like any kind of psychoactive medications because they've heard horror stories or things don't work and people take them and then they quit taking them and then they're crazy every time they quit taking them and it's a whole thing. But there's options. You don't have to just stick with medications and drugs. You don't have to be medicated to heal and to be different or better. You can get better through just like cognitive behavioral therapies. You can get better with just acknowledging and being aware of certain triggers and things and avoiding the situations or learning how to better cope with those situations as they arise. So it doesn't necessarily like, I'm going to go to a psychiatrist and they're just going to put me on a bunch of drugs, which I think is a lot of people's, um. apprehensiveness towards going to therapists and that doesn't have to be the case. It also doesn't mean that like just because you go to a therapist you're admitting there's something wrong. This is like the biggest argument me and my partner would have because he didn't think that, you know, there was anything wrong with him and he didn't need to go to therapy. And I said, that statement right there is a hundred percent why you need to go to therapy and the kids agree. And it was, it was a battle. And then he went and was like, yeah, it was really helpful. you know, wasn't victimized and wasn't blamed, wasn't made fun of. know, realizing that a lot of people go to therapy and talking about it openly. helped him realize that a lot of his friends go to therapy and when he looks back at their childhood and the things that they went through, he's like, yeah, that makes sense that we all probably need therapy and this is good for us. And so it's good for him to have that revelation and to actually talk about it openly. I think that was a big help is that some of the people wanted to put some kind of. weird stigma on, you go to therapy who, yeah, no, yeah, I do, why don't you? Should be the response. Like yeah, I do, I go to therapy, why don't you go to therapy? You should, if anybody should. Anyway, I'm not just saying those things to say those things. I'm just saying that therapy is good for everybody. Going to a therapist doesn't mean that you're admitting anything's wrong with you. Doesn't mean they're going to immediately put you on any kind of medications. But yeah, you should focus on your healing. It's important. And no matter how. And you think you take a step forward and you take a few steps back no matter how many steps back you think you're taking. It's always good to acknowledge. How many steps forward you took? Because moments like what I'm currently going through, it's like... wow, I am not at all where I want to be right now. And then it's also like, you know, I'm also way ahead of where I was when I started and I think it's important that we acknowledge that and take that into consideration. So yeah, I'm not happy about my current situation. I'm not happy about losing all of my things. I'm not happy about being robbed. I was robbed as a child, like robbed, robbed. so having anything stolen from me is so very triggering. debating whether or not I want to share this story with you. So when I was little, my baby doll was stolen from me. I was five or six and her name was Miranda and she was um I don't know if she was like a baby alive like she was anatomically correct and um I took really good care of her. was really good mom at five and she was taken from me and I was so devastated that I carried around her birth pillow, her birth pillow, because I had a birth pillow so my baby had to have one too. So I carried around her birth pillow in the onesie I was going to put her in after her bath for like three years. I was like eight or nine when my aunt mom was actually like, hey, can we talk about this? Because like, you're kind of weird. We had a really healthy, not really, kind of conversation about how I needed to get over it, basically. And I was like, my baby was stolen from me. And like, she didn't understand how traumatic that was. And I took into consideration. And then I quit carrying it around, but I slept with it until I was like 12. I was in my bed with all my stuffed animals. And I had her baby blanket and her onesie, and it was just... I carried that around for a long, long time. So it was, I don't know why that was so traumatic for me at that age, but it was. And so getting stolen from just really triggered that. And I don't know if it was just something that... it was just it re-triggered all of that all over again and... and it's really hard for me to process and deal with. So I don't like when my things are stolen for a lot of reasons, but. It's so easy to just be like, know what? Screw it. I don't want to do any of this anymore. I'm over it. I'm just... I'm done. And then like, you know what? I'm not gonna let them win. It's just stuff. You know, it's... Am I gonna get my dead mom's stuff back? Probably not. Do I care about the camping stuff? No. It's replaceable. The only thing that's not really replaceable is like all of my rocks that are, you know... the rocks so they're individual. Like there's no two box are the same. And I wore my jewelry all the time. I even had a little spreadsheet for this podcast on what jewelry I wore on what days. And that way I didn't wear the same thing over and over. I wanted to kind of keep it fresh and I had so many options and now I'm just like, nothing. I didn't care. So maybe I needed that. And I gave you lot of really personal information this episode and I really hope it helps you understand that like healing isn't linear. You're going to have setbacks and it's okay and just don't let them win. Don't be like, know what? I can't do this anymore. I can't continue to heal every time I try to heal something else happens. Yeah, that's the point because the more you heal, the more you learn, you have to heal the more you're capable of healing. You know, I don't know that I would be capable of dealing with such a loss right now a year ago a Year ago, I would have been in a much darker place and I don't think I would have handled the situation as Appropriately as I am I think But you know, I just I know I wouldn't have. A year ago I had so much else going on that I was trying to heal from that if you would have thrown this on top of me I would have just thrown in the towel. And And so I understand how close you can be to just saying, it. Like, I can't do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. And I just wanted to make this episode to be like, you can. You can and you will. And you'll be glad you did. I can't tell you why. I don't know why. But I just know you will. if you made it this far. Thank you for watching. Like, share, subscribe, do all the things. Again, I'm going to have some better, some better videos for you next week. They will be a lot more informative, lots more information. This was just kind of me rambling while I got ready today. So next week will be so much better in the long run. I'll actually have some, some good references. yeah, read the body, keep score by Vessel dr. Bessel Vander Something man. Yeah, go read that book. Like share subscribe do all the things I will see you next week Thank you so much for being here and subscribing and doing all the things Let's go do life Healed